29 weeks pregnant · Gender reveal · Health · Marriage · Pregnancy after loss

Life since my mini meltdown!

Hi guys,

Where to start, firstly apologies for my Mini melt down on my last post. Everything kind of hit me very suddenly. Stupidly I didn’t think that I would fall pregnant so quickly after beginning trying for #2 although as my MIL kindly told me “this coming from the girl that fell pregnant 4 times in 1 year” so rather I didn’t expect it to stick quite so quickly.

Little update for you all As life has definitely run away from me since my last post. We have moved house finally! Yay! We have unpacked and are slowly making it our own.

Elliott is now 22months so nearly 2 years old… I honestly don’t know where those 2 years have gone to? He’s walking, talking and amazing me each day with the new things he has learnt some how!?

I am now 29 weeks pregnant with baby number 2. No sickness or pregnancy symptoms of any kind apart from an ever expanding stomach. We have known for a little while now that it’s another little boy 🙂 but still struggling with names??

Emotionally I still feel a little in denial and these last 29 weeks have rolled around far too quickly for my liking. God knows how quick the next 11 will go. Very unprepared, in fact all our baby things from Elliott are still in the loft of our old house which my step brother is currently renting (really need to go and get it all soon)

Very different pregnancy from the last one. Not symptoms etc but where the two placenta’s have been in different places all the movements etc are polar opposites. Elliott’s placenta was anterior and I only felt him around the edges and on a night. This one is posterior so feeling every single little nudge, roll, kick. Bazaar! Wonderful, but odd. I’ve inserted a few photographs from the last months. Sorry I have kept in touch. Phew it’s been busy!

Anyway talk soon, don’t forget you can message me at any time! Xxx

10 week scan Elliott eating soup for the 1st timeannouncement to the world Elliott’s 1st snow day 17 week scan Icecream on a sunny spring day

17 weeks old · Posterior tongue tie · Pregnancy after loss · Rainbow baby · Uncategorized

Posterior tongue tie! 😱

Hi guys, so sorry I haven’t written for a while it’s been a little chaotic here. So our little guy is 17 weeks old now. Since he was about 11-12 weeks old all hell has gone on. Or at least for us it has. He had his 2nd lot of jabs on the Monday, I went out on the Tuesday evening leaving him with the hubby and some expressed milk. Then because we had some milk left over we left him with my parents and had our very 1st date night. After that he wouldn’t breast feed, or at least not without a fight. We were told he was having bottle preference and to not give him any more bottles, this was to encourage him to get back to the breast. 2 weeks later at our local baby weigh in, our little guy had lost 3oz in weight. Not good! They told me I needed to start with formula top ups and to get him checked out by our GP to make sure there wasn’t an underlying issue we weren’t aware of. We did both these. The GP said there wasn’t an issue and to give him the formula same as the health visitor had. Although I was worried this was going to mean the end of breast feeding (when I say worried I mean endless days of crying hysterically on the sofa) we did it. At the end of the day all you want is a happy & healthy baby, being hungry was not going to achieve this. After a couple  more weeks of hysterical crying & atttending every single breast feeding meeting in my local area we finally got to the bottom of what was the problem. I was sure it was me, I was doing something wrong. Not holding him properly, not feeding him enough or for long enough. I was getting tips, advice and suggestions from left right & centre. As it turned out I wasn’t doing anything wrong. All those weeks of stress were for nothing. As it turned out our little boy had a posterior tongue tie. They check for an anterior tie at birth but don’t bother with the posterior as 8/10 times they aren’t a problem. His was! I’d never even heard of it until a lovely lady at my local breast feeding group had a look and confirmed her suspicions. We hired another lady from the tongue tie association who came and examined him. She said that yes indeed he did have a tongue tie and that our poor little love could barely move his tongue. I feel so guilty that I didn’t notice this. It was just normal for him. Out of a score of 14 on functionality he only scored 5! Bless him! This lady who was very qualified (she had certificates and insurance with her)  then cut his little tie. She said that if he tie had more elasticity to it, it wouldn’t of caused a problem. He could get a little milk out which was fine when he was little but now he was older and needing more milk that’s why it’s become so evident. I can’t believe such a small thing has caused such a big difference. He’s now wriggling his tongue round like there is no tomorrow. If he could speak I imagine he would be saying “Mum, Mum, look at this, look what I can do 👅” haha bless him. It all seems to be getting better. It’s not a quick fix, he’s still having some formula bottles just not as many. Obviously because he couldn’t get any milk out my supply hasn’t grown with the demand so I need to build it up.

Just a little FYI post for any of you breast feeding mums, it’s something to look out for as it effects their speech when they’re older if left untreated.

Write soon x

Ectopic pregnancy · Marriage · Newborn · Pregnancy after loss · TTC

He’s here!

image.jpegOur little bundle is here! Now I’ve been slightly busy with a new born so he is 7 weeks old! I didn’t then we would ever get to this point! With 2 miscarriages, 2 ectopic pregnancies and a lost Fallopian tube under our belts we thought all hope was lost…. Until the little Miracle that is Elliott! That’s our sons name by the way, Elliott Linden David (Surname) to be precise 😍👶🏼

Birth Story (because everyone loves those) – We had planned a home birth, with all our previous troubles having him in a hospital just didn’t seem right. We hired a birthing pool from a company called ‘mermaid at heart’ for £90 😱 they deliver you a box when you’re 37 weeks (when you’re classed as full term) and you keep it until you’re 42 weeks (or give birth whichever is sooner) after 42 weeks it is no longer safe for you to have a home birth.

My plan was whilst in early labour to get in the bath and let my husband pump up the pool and fill it etc. This would give him something to do instead of faffing around me 😋.

So week 37 pool gets delivered and sits in the corner of our lounge for what seemed like a year. Statistically 1st time mums give birth a week- 2 weeks over due and only 5% of babys are born on their due dates.So we were panicking that we’d paid for this pool to decorate our lounge and gather dust for a few weeks for me to go over due and have to go into hospital anyway.

Luckily on the 9th of August at 10.45am at 39 weeks and 6 days pregnant my waters broke. I was just laying in bed (lazy I know) and I heard a pop. If you’ve ever had your hip click before it felt like that… Only in your hoo haa! Thinking “What the fuck was that??” I ran to the bathroom. As I ran the waters gushed all down my legs. I phoned my husband whilst on the toilet and told him. He immediately wanted to come home from work, but I told him there was no point yet as I wasn’t having any contractions.

I phoned the labour line, there was a sticker with the number on it, in the front of my maternity notes which stated ‘if you think you’re in labour or your waters have broken then call th number below’

They made an appointment at our local hospital Princess Anne for 9pm and said if I hadn’t had any contractions by then I had to go to see them so they could get my waters had actually broken (basically to check I hadn’t just peed my knickers) Your waters are a funny old thing. I expected it to be be like in the films where they break (usually in a supermarket) one big gush and that’s that. Mine however seemed to be a big gush every time I stood up. I mean soaking one of those giant maternity pads every time. I went through 4 pairs of trousers before lunch time and then just gave up wearing any lol where as other people have said theirs never broke, had to be broken for them or just had a small trickle and that was it. It has a strange smell, sort of chemically and clean. A bit like chlorine… I guess it is sterile water??

8.00pm rolled around still with no contractions, so off to the hospital we went with a bag full of sopping pads which I was instructed I must keep and take with us (gross right!?)

got to the hospital and was kept waiting until 10.45pm… So much for getting as much sleep as possible before hand! Midwife eventually came to see us and took the pads off of me. Now I’m not sure if she was an old school midwife or If it’s standard practice (if so poor them) but the way she tested to see if it was actually my waters and not pee was to sniff in….! I mean she got her nose right up in there and smelt at least 3 of the 9 pads we’d brought along. She then examined me and got me to cough before concluding that yes indeed my waters had broken. She said if I hadn’t gone into natural labour by 11am Thursday the 11th when I would of been 1 day over due then I’d need to come back in to be induced. This would mean having the baby in hospital, which I did not want to do.

Leaving the hospital at 12.30am excited that my waters had broken but scared and worried that I would have to be induced. We got home and went to bed at 1am knackered.

3am: woke up with contractions. Woke the husband and told him, as they weren’t strong we decided to get some more sleep for the long day ahead as we were advised in our antinatal classes.

5.30am could not sleep any more. Asked husband to get me two hot water bottles, thought the heat might help. One for my tummy and one for my lower back. Then call the labour line and tell them what had happened. Unfortunately it was the same midwife from the night before who said that there wouldn’t be anyone available to come out to us til 9am and to just get some rest.

7am I got into the bath tub then rang both our sets of parents to let them know it was happening. There was no point setting up the pool yet as it was only early days. We phoned the midwife again as the pains had gotten worse but she wasn’t concerned with How I sounded so it was all good.

8am the pain got much worse my husband was using our shower head to blast my tummy or back with hot hot water with each contraction to try sooth me (thank god we’d changed our boiler recently) without it I don’t think I’d of got through it. My husband said “that looked like you pushed then” I replied “that’s because I did!” He called the midwife back and told them I was pushing and we needed someone ASAP!

8.30am the urge to push got stronger to the point that I couldn’t help it. This baby was coming! I jumped up out of the bath and blood trickled down my legs. If you’ve ever cut yourself shaving in the bath you’ll know how far a tiny drop of blood can go. My husband took charge, we couldn’t wait for this midwife. Something was wrong! He called 999!

999 operator sent an ambulance. He said get her out of the bath and onto the bed. It sounds like the baby is back to back (when their spine is against yours) so get her to stop pushing.

you cannot for the life of you just stop pushing.. It’s impossible! My body was pushing the operator was telling me to stop. All that happened was I was writhing around on our bed with my hands in between my legs, shouting that I couldn’t stop! There was no way in hell!

8.50 First response man arrived and as he was coming up the stairs I made him stop so I…could put my nighty on?? My exact words were “you don’t need to see my boobs” what?? Of all the things to be worried about??

He came in, took one look at what was going on down below and said “you’re fine, crack on”

Roughly 5 pushes later at 9.10am on Wednesday 10th August exactly on his due date and on our bed at home, Our little Elliott was born, weighing 6lb 15 1/2oz. If my husband hasn’t called 999 he would of been the one catching Elliott 😱😜

At 9.30am the midwife showed up to assist my husband to cut the umbilical cord and deliver the placenta.

We had to go into hospital so I could be stitched back up. I tell you, that hurt more than bloody labour. The needle looked like a fish hook… Ouch… But gas and air was lovely! 😋

4 hours after he was born we were back at home having a cuppa and a cuddle on the sofa, staring at our expensive unused birthing pool in the corner.

It just goes to show, anything is possible. 5 pregnancies and a missing Fallopian tube but we got there.. We have our baby, and I couldn’t be happier. Very content and happy mummy over here. Wishing you all the best 😘

27 weeks pregnant · Health · Pregnancy after loss · Uncategorized

27 weeks 3D scan!

imageTada! Just as the title stated, 3D scan of our baby boy. He looks like an actual baby! Duh! But I still couldn’t imagine him as an actual baby. Strange really. I kind of feel like every time we have a scan they’re just playing a video of someone else’s baby, like those women in films that bribe the sonographer into tricking their “baby daddies” maybe I am a giant plonker but that’s just how it feels. However on the 3D scan you cannot deny that Is our child. Welling up again thinking about it. Silly pregnant women! He looks like us, but not like us…. Strange concept! Little bugger didn’t wanna show us his face, didn’t mind showing us everything else. Believe me there is no denying he is a boy after seeing that in 3D haha little monkey. He had his hands, legs and umbilical cord up in his face not letting us have a look see… But we got there eventually 🙂 It’s an odd feeling, one I hope each and every person wanting children can experience in some form or another. It is a magical thing and 1 I wouldn’t change for anything.

Good luck guys, and sleep tight it’s nap time 😉 Xxx

20 weeks pregnant · Ectopic pregnancy · Health · Pregnancy after loss · Uncategorized

20 week scan!

Hello there dear readers,

so far so good. Little bugger of a boy is still in there, nestled right where he should be in my womb! I’m not complaining, but this wasn’t quite how I’d imagined pregnancy!? I’ve got no sickness, no mood swings, no cravings (apart from a week of mashed potatoes) no heart burn. Nought, Nada, nothing. Well except for the slowly getting snugger trousers and the over powering desire to sleep in the afternoons. 🤔 I imagined it to be a hell of a lot worse than this. Maybe we’ve had our share of bad luck whilst trying to concieve this little guy and this (along with a beautiful baby) is our reward? Who knows!? Either way I am grateful.

20 week scan time and it’s amazing what they can show you!? We had a look at his bladder, heart, lungs, mouth, kidneys, heart valves etc etc too much to remember it all. We have one healthy and happy little boy in there… Which she double checked for us (just in case haha)

imageUpside down baby… Look at that spine.

 

Ectopic pregnancy · Gender reveal · Pregnancy after loss

It’s a…

Hey guys,

if you’ve been following our story you’ll of realised by now that I am like any typical women and want everything done yesterday haha. Well any way. All the way through this pregnancy and previous failed attempts my husband and I have always said we were team yellow. As in we didn’t want to find out our babies gender before he or she popped out…. Well that changed. We had a discussion and decided that because we wanted to get everything we possibly could out of this pregnancy (as we aren’t 100% if we are going to have any more) we would have a gender scan at 17 weeks. Then have a gender reveal party for all our family and friends.

So we went for the scan and our little sproglett did not want to show us anything. Legs closed, hands and umbilical cord all up in the privates so we couldn’t see a thing! Lots of embarrassing bum wiggling, jumping jacks, weeing, power walking around the grounds and eventually we were able to see what was going on in there haha. Stubborn little bugger (just like mum)

imageWe had our little gathering and revealed to all our nearest and dearest that it is a…..

blue one! 👶🏼🍼💙

A BOY!

12 weeks pregnant · Ectopic pregnancy · Marriage · Pregnancy after loss · TTC · Uncategorized

12 weeks pregnant

Hey guys, sorry just realised that in my obviously baby brained stupidness that I had put all the posts I’ve done over the last 7 months into drafts and not actually published them… No wonder no-one was commenting/reading haha duh!

Ok so here it goes…

12 weeks pregnant! What a cock up! So by now we have met our midwife, she’s called Vicky. She’s lovely if not a little bit um…. Ditsy shall we say haha. Basically your 12 week scan is not a 12 week scan like we had assumed… As apparently many people had. I had always been told that you have a 12 week scan because that is a ‘safety zone’ and they like to double check that everything is progressing well, for people having regular pregnancies no complications etc it is their 1st scan. It is actually called your dating scan!? Because we had an 8 week scan they weren’t going to offer us a 12 week scan. 😦 this made me sad and mad, I thought this would be the start of us having a normal pregnancy. Starting from 12 weeks we could be just like any other couple pregnant with their 1st child. Nope! Poop!

Any how our midwife tried to get us a scan at the hospital but they said they’d only do one if we got tested for everything under the sun… Which we didn’t want. If our child ended up having Down syndrome or a disability of some kind we would not love them any less. So we decided we would do another private scan for the 12 weeks instead.

 

imageThis is our little bundle at 12 weeks. Isn’t it cute! And hasn’t it grown in two weeks…

Good luck everyone out there trying for their own little family. If we can do it after two ectopic pregnancies, two miscarriages with only one Fallopian tube there is a chance for you too! Keep you posted on how the rest goes

much love xxx